Women, Sentimental Fools, they be.

Accepting

I can accept
If you're ugly
Cos once you speak I forget to notice
I can accept
If you are fussy
So long as you’re interesting
I can accept
If you're short
So long as you don't feel short

I can accept
If you don't spend much time with me
So long as I know you think of me
I can accept
Your boorish friends
Cos they are important to you
I can accept
Your family and your past
Cos they are part of who you are

I can accept many things
Many difficult things
But I can't accept
If you two timed me
But I can't accept
If you don't keep promises

But most of all
But I can't accept
If you don't love me
Cos why then should I

Love you?

Kel. 28 September 2004.

I was talking to *bouncy who's on the verge of a breakup (sigh. let's keep fingers crossed for her but hard hearted bitch tat i am, can't help thinking it might be better if they broke up. I still tink one should be decisive abt such things and dun drag/put off painful decisions. After all, life is already difficult enough without unduly prolonging pain. but tat's me. *shrug*). Anyway, we were discussing women and love, and I was thinking that women are such soft-hearted creatures, present company or rather, me excluded of cos. I mean, it's obvious to me from the start that *bouncy was with Mr Him because typically, women are soft-hearted. Give them a guy that likes them a lot & puts in effort to be understanding and sensitive, they can't bring themselves to turn such guys down. If any guy is reading this, I'm not encouraging you to pretend to be nice and sensitive or guarantee tat doing so would win you your gal, but that generally, gals, at least most gals i know seem soft-hearted and unable to turn certain guys down. So here we have *bouncy with a good looking guy who spent much time and effort to win her. And she found herself falling for him. So they get together. If everything ended at this point, fine. Happy ending. Lived happily ever after. But no, life is never so simple. So after putting herself mind, body & soul into said guy & relationship, problems start to turn up.

If we look at the cons, of cos there are many reasons to break up but one pro overweighs all the cons, ie, the big CAPITAL L. Yes, love. Sigh. Women are such soft hearted sentimental fools. Thus, she is now in a quarry. sigh. Poor *bouncy. Perhaps its easy for me to say it so decisively but look at it this way, dear *bouncy says she knows she might be on the verge of breaking up because there are many things many cons she can put up with but what she can't accept is the fact that Mr Him does not keep promises. If he nv promised anything in the first place, *bouncy is not the type to demand but once promised, she is the type to demand someone to keep their word. As such, it shows that a woman can accept a lot of flaws in a guy but every woman has something that pushes her limits. For *bouncy, its not keeping promises. For me, it's committment, integrity and trust. I think I can accept a lot of flaws or bad habits, but really, there are some stuff that I just can't tolerate. I am not fussy abt romance, moonight and candles. I am certainly not fussy about looks and wealth. In other words, I am not fussy in a lot of aspects that I know some girls are, but there are some flaws that I know is not a big deal to most but I just can't accept. But that's not my main point in this blog.

Rather I wanna point that no matter how soft hearted you can be, how romantic the moment, how perfect he seems, never accept a guy for the dumb reason that you can't bear to turn him down. Accepting becomes merely the instrument to hurting both you 2 and worse, accepting might eventually turn to tolerating and then it becomes causing 2 parties misery. I think I'll rather be alone than be with a perfect guy that is imperfect for me. In the same way, I'll rather be happily an individual than miserably a couple. In other words, dear friends, live alone & be happy is better than have someone but in misery. Don't overestimate or overvalue romantic love. There are so many other equally if not more important things in life than romantic love. Even for a cold hearted bitch that I am, all my dear friends and beloved family are vital to me. So, even I can't esscape from the chains of worldly sentiments, even if I wanted to, which I don't. But perhaps, that is what makes a human distinct from a saint? The reluctance to put down the chains of worldly life?

Still, what is so great about sainthood when life has so much color and variety? At least I would gladly settle for life as me with my dear friends than sainthood without them.

So dear readers, be appreciative of everyone and everything around you. Pardon my preaching tone. Just in a sudden grateful sentimental mood. Don't even think to ask me why. Just stop and enjoy the moment. Enjoy life, enjoy living.

Carpe diem. *wink*