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"I am a contradictory mess but I see it as my prerogative to change my mood like the weather."
~ Shirley Manson

It is yours truly's prerogative to change my mind.

But really because someone complained. Yours truly won't want to be the cause of someone going blind…*deadpan*

But there must be better use of one's time than reading old blogs?

But then again, perhaps not.

Swansong

Flutes of champagne

Bubbles floating

On the final minute of

Yours truly's birthday

Toast your champagne

To the final swansong

Of sheercrazyme

Good riddance.

~ yours truly

Wizard Test

My Inner Hero - Wizard!


There are many types of magic, but all require a sharp mind and a cool head. There is no puzzle I can't solve, no problem I can't think my way out of. When you feel confused or uncertain, you can always rely on me to untangle the knots and put everything back in order for you.

How about you? Click here to find your own inner hero.

Taking for Granted

Should I reflect?
Is it my fault?
Am I doing too much?
So much
So naturally
That you no longer notice
That you take me for granted

Perhaps I should reflect
Perhaps it is my fault
Perhaps I am doing too much
So much
So naturally
That you just accept as your right
That you forget that it is not so

I think I know
It is my fault
I am doing too much
So much of what I do
So very naturally
Is just being taken
For granted

You take me for granted
Am I being too nice
Am I being too amendable
Just because I am capable
Does not mean
You can take me for granted

Remember that
Just because I do
Everything
So much
So naturally
It is not your right to expect
It is not your right to take for granted

I owe you nothing
Just because I can
Just because I am capable
Just because I am me
It does not mean
You can take me for granted

You have no right
To take me for granted

Bear in mind
That I do what I do because
I can
Because I want to

But

Bear in mind
That I can

Stop

If I want to

And I will

If you carry on
To take me for granted

Because

Really

You have no right

To take me for granted.

:::

Just because yours truly is quite able to cope and can do organising without much effort, that does not give anyone the right to take moi for granted, and worse, yours truly takes even more offence when anyone takes MY clique for granted.

Yours truly might be slow to anger and have moderate temperament and discipline enough not to throw a tantrum or take out my anger on anyone, it doesn't follow that yours truly doesn't get pissed.

In my professional capacity, trust me, moi doesn't allow anyone to take me for granted or not know when I am doing someone a favor. But for my friends, especially for a member of my clique, I let them have it easy, in fact, I would try to make things easier for them. But hey, that doesn't give anyone the right to take moi or other members of my clique for granted. Certainly not when imposing on us.

I hate the sense of being an afterthought. Also, I don't know how the rest of my clique feels, but I feel that some of them are more my friends than the someone's so I feel doubly bad that my friends are being imposed upon yet treated like an afterthought, such shabbly treatment.

How dare you take us, take me for granted. Or we so unimportant or am I such an unimportant wedding coordinator that you take for granted that even if we or I were not around, the wedding would have gone on without a hitch? *arched brows*

What is it about our friends that makes one less ruthless and less harsh than in my professional capacity?

Or is it just me?

Perhaps I should just exercise my ability to say NO and be the bitch to my friends more often?

Someone tells me I should be more obvious with my friends (or even take it out on all and sundry) when I am pissed.

But yours truly have a highly developed sense of propriety. In other words, I don't take out my *emotions on uninvolved beings.

But maybe I should. At the very least, on the person who takes my efforts for granted and is unappreciative?

Yes. Moi is pissed. More so now than, cos instead of being able to rant and tell that someone off, yours truly ended up consoling her. *roll eyes*

Friends. Why me?

Sheer in a fit

Wedding-Coordinator-to-be

“Friends are meant to be imposed upon”
~ Sheer

Yours truly is wondering whether moi is able to cope with 3 office events I am running next week and still be the overall wedding coordinator for a wedding that (a) I haven't been involved in at all in the planning, so have no idea on the logistics and what is happening, (b) have not even seen the venue at all, (c) have a workshop that I am running on the same day, so can only be at the wedding location later since I can only be on half day and (d) have a council meeting that I am running immediately on the Monday after the wedding day...and its not even my wedding. *dryly*

Such faith the bride has. *Witchy actually imagine that she can sack her wedding planner and *impose on moi to be her overall coordinator on a 1 week notice. *arched brow. More importantly, moi's friends have offered to be moi's hands and stay by ready for job delegation. No one considered that yours truly might not be able to cope?

The reality is, well, probably yours truly can do it….I might have to push my limits a bit to do it, but probably still can.

But the problem is, (a) it is the dream wedding of a member of my exclusive clique, do I want to risk it not running well, (b) it is really short notice! And (c) I want to have fun and relax at the pool wedding and not be working…when one is the organizer for an event, one almost always never have fun. *laconic*

Oh well. No point thinking about it since moi has just received the wedding sequence of events, and guess what, in the contact list, yours truly is already listed (with my contact no to boot!) as the wedding coordinator. Talk about acting fast...maybe *witchy has a different understanding of "let-me-think-about-it"? Or has yours truly just been too *nice lately? *arched brows

~ Sheer being or rather, allowing herself to imposed on

China trip

1. Conference & Meeting rooms
2. Hotel's cafe & restaurant
3. Massage Spa next door
4. 1 basement shopping centre
5. 1 bookstore
6. Seaview of South China Sea (why is the water always muddy?) from my hotel

:::

Above is the list of what yours truly has seen in her short jaunt to China, Zhuhai for a short trip. In other words, it was an exhausting few days. However, it was a trip with many *interesting personalities to observe. Some good, some bad, some weird....I guess the main takeaway is that yours truly now recognise all the bigwigs in moi's organisation and likely they recognise me as well. Oh, that and yours truly managed to practise the art of bargaining, which I only seriously do once in a blue moon to keep in practise.

In terms of content, it was quite an intensive 4 days of workshop. Am now looking forward to how what was discuss is cascading downwards in our organisation and ideas are concretised.

The down side is, yours truly has skipped 4 creative writing classes due to the China trip and jet lag (and oversleeping today!).

In any case, there's a colleague's bday party to attend this evening...hmm....am trying to recall why I am going...oh yah, and how did I managed to get *coerced into joining said colleague's jazz class.....as in she is teaching....hmm....?

PS: Work is going well, am quite busy but its been fun...but yours truly feels a bit bored. I wonder why? Maybe my brain needs R&R. *grin*

Sheer

(The one and only photo on the only SUNNY day - whoever said Zhuhai was hot was *deluded - yours truly took from my hotel room overlooking the pool & South China Sea with my hp since yours truly didn't bring a camera)

Update on my LIFE

"blend with the sheep; hunt with the wolves"
~ from "The Rules of Work"

:::

Am taking a break from work, so here's a quick random update (not in any specific choronological order) on yours truly's life in brief for the *few weirdos who actually reads my blog and had the audacity 2 complain that yours truly isn't blogging regularly enough (of cos I am not! I have a life...where's yours?)

1. Went for a 3 days PURE SHOPPING trip in Bangkok....and only visited ONE shopping mall....scary huh. Don't even think about the amount of stuff that moi has bought or more to the point, the amount of MONEY spent. As an aside, moi's clothes has OUTGROWN moi's wardrobe, so I now need to get a new one. *grimace

2. Yours truly is totally and absolutely swamped with work (but what's new about that?); and moi will be leaving for China on 28 June for a short office trip, but will be contactable via msn since yours truly decided to lug my trusty laptop along with me. heavy...anyone wants to act as my porter?

3. Went to a gay bar last Friday (boring...), the only *interesting thing that happened was that moi met an ex-MALE colleague at the bar who either *really didn't see me or *pretended not to see me...and btw, the PERSON who wanted to go to the gay bar didn't turn up. I might not always show it (in fact, usually I dun...) but I am actually quite *pissed with him. Oh well. Shrug. Not impt person enough to give him a piece of my mind....*acting the bitch is reserved for selected people for very selective reasons.

4. Went to a BBQ bday party, food was a tad salty but quite okay, nice potato and WAY too much drinks; the atmosphere could be *better I guess. But no real complains, at least there were a great sea breeze and 2 guys in charge of cooking everything and serving us...

5. My grandmother has returned home from *rehab and moi is arranging for her home therapy.

6. Have another bday party to attend next month...again, lotsa strangers...hmm...maybe I should reflect on why lately yours truly seems unable to remain anti-social although of course, yours truly always have the option of going to a party and being anti-social.

7. Planning a bday party....or more to the point, have delegated the planning to____ and _____. Thanks! (not that I gave you 2 your any choice...but hey, I should at least be polite abt it...)

8. Went to pick wedding gowns with *Ms Nice and seriously, it took a WHOPPING 6 hours! OMG. Tell me again why people get hitched?

9. If you even managed to read to this point....I'm impressed at your nosiness....anything else you wana know....you would have to ask me...although yours truly can't fathom wat else anyone wld wanna know...

~ sheer