Friends can be frightening

"Friends know you better than everyone else. Which can really be annoying. Especially when they point things out that you already know...and would sincerely like to pretend you didn't." - Doona Kauffman.

I think I always known the above but sometimes knowing doesn’t always equate understanding. Yesterday, I went out with a close friend *eccentric. Well, actually, it was meant to be a dinner with 3 other frens, but you know how things are, sometimes karma just go haywire and so the other 2 didn't turn up. Anyway, my point is (yes, I do have a point here) it's frightening how much your close friends know about you, worse, it's horrifying how much alike friends can be. Sometimes, alone, you know stuff, but if you dun voice it out, you can pretend it doesn't happen. But if you meet up with your frens, all the un-voiced gets voiced out. Then what you once knew unconsciously but pretend you didn't, becomes a conscious fact. Then it becomes hard to go back to pretending you didn't know. Am I actually making sense here? *very probably not. But nvm, who cares? No one is actually reading this, so let me continue on this topic. Take for instance, my job. I see certain symptoms, little stuff that really mean nothing but you know, or rather, I know if I consciously reflected and added up all the dots, the little symptoms reveals that I'm not exactly satisfied. Or more to the point, I want more. But I just wanted to pretend I didn't know. But who am I kidding here? I hate lying to myself, which I nv do, but not adding dots up are my defensive mechanism. But alas, once I met up with *eccentric, we discuss our lives, our jobs, and suddenly the dots get dotted. And what we both know unconsciously gets voiced out. Suddenly we are one sandwich short of a picnic, to borrow a phrase from *S. In other words, near the point of no return. Standing on a the edge of the cliff where you must make a move or risk falling. *sigh* Friends are great to have, but close friends are so frightening at times. *grimace*