I'm feeling jerky

Yours truly is feeling like a jerk.

It happened thus:

I have accepted the job offer from NTUC to do corporate development. Immediately, the next task is to turn down MHA, which I assure you, yours truly did not handle it well. I should have damn well think about if not rehearse what I should say.

Instead, I had to just call and blurt out that I have accepted another job offer. Again, horrifying the MHA HR lady, who is very nice and who exclaimed that MHA is at the last stage of seeking approval. OMG. That means she has processed all the paperwork and she was puzzled that I wasn't aware that it was a formal offer and the department has already selected me. Sucks.

So what if they did skip the formal offer stage and assumed that I would take the job, nonetheless, it is utmostly wretched of me to turn down now at the last stage. Yes, yours truly is drowning in self-imposed guilt.

I had, of course, apologised most abjectly for the trouble I put MHA through. But still, I am feeling bad.

To top off the day, after yours truly accepted NTUC, turned down MHA, the Singapore Administrative Service, which is a MANAGEMENT ASSOCIATE PROGRAM, which on a whim, I sent my resume about a month ago, called and shortlisted yours truly for a series of tests.

It is just about the premier management associate program in town.

This could turn out bloody.

It is already messy.

grimace.

Sheer feeling shitty