Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Envy

I hate you

I hate the way
you describe your experiences
in the Big Apple
making me yearn
for more

I hate you

I hate the way
You make me feel inadequate
For not keeping up
With scholarly studies
Making me guilty
For knowing too little

I hate you

I hate the way
You live the life
To the fullest
Creating
Learning
Making me feel
Stagnant

I hate you

I hate the way
You know so much
Have so much to look
Forward to
Making me depressed
About putting my life
On hold
To save up for my
Life ahead

I hate you
I really do
Even if you provide
Eye candy

Even if you provide
So much interesting knowledge

I still hate
You

I do.

Kel. 31 May 2005

5 comments:

Yours truly said...

laugh. oh, he's been back for a while, it's just that yours truly hasn't managed to meet up with him till recently. *sulk* and boy, wasn't it depressing. *sardonically*

Anonymous said...

no smoke without fire; no hate without love. =)

... in.fatuated?

Anonymous said...

Junoesque, maybe she won't admit it to us; or maybe she is *coughindenialcough* ... erm, right.

hey Kel, if it is who i think it is, can you ask him about his blog - if his blurty blog is dead for good?

Yours truly said...

my dear frens, trust me, if you know wat I know abt said *ahem guy, you won't even ask abt smoke.

for lack of better way of explanation, as a woman i don't have a chance in hell with him. *grin*

laugh. But yes, good candidate for an in.fatuatation on, too bad, he doesn't do for me. It's his experience & lifestyle & NY tat i really envy. *sulk*

Yes. will ask for you abt blurty.

Yours truly said...

wallflower: guy aka *NY says blurty is still existing. he got the hint. it's time to update. grin.